35 Years on Tour 

You know, it's funny how life on tour can be both exhilarating and exhausting at the same time. The rush of performing, the adrenaline of being on stage—with on stage, I mean being in the centre of the venue delivering the audience a performance. I see myself as an artist delivering the fans the sound experience of their life, the constant movement from one city to another—it's a whirlwind that's hard to describe. But when the tour is over and I step back into my own space, that's when it hits me—a deep emptiness and loneliness that's hard to shake off.
It's like coming back to a place that should feel like home, but it doesn't. The familiarity is there, but the connection is missing. That's when the yearning for a private life, away from the constant spotlight, kicks in. I find myself craving the thrill of exploring new places, meeting new faces, and living out of my trusty suitcase—just like when I'm on tour. Hotels, you know, they become a strange sort of comfort. They remind me of those nights on the road, where each hotel room was a temporary sanctuary. It's like I carry a piece of that tour life with me, even when I'm back home. And yet, there's that struggle to create a real sense of belonging, a true home that doesn't feel so empty. But I've come to realise that this transition takes time—a detox of sorts. It's not easy to switch from the fast-paced energy of the stage to the quiet solitude of everyday life. It's a process of finding my footing again, of reconnecting with the people who matter and rediscovering the things that bring me joy beyond the music.

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